haha yeah. fairly often. i feel like nowadays, that doesn't stop people though.

i actually know the specific venue.. is that creepy? it's the mountaintop inn and resort in vermont. the photo galleries are absolutely beautiful. i'd like a snowy, cozy, winter wedding.

http://www.mountaintopinnweddings.com/

people are too nice. stuff like this makes me want to cry. (in a good way.)

i hardly ever purchase movies, but i have a sick director's cut edition of donnie darko in this tin box with frank the rabbit on the front. that's one of those movies that seems to just seems to reveal things to you every time you watch it, even if it's the hundreth time.

butt plugs because they're dishwasher safe.

i don't know. what kind of question is that, even? ha.

:( <3 i'll get over it someday, i hope.

thank you. that means a lot to me.

this is such a tough question because i admire so many different people for such different reasons. i guess i'll just be superficial and vain and go on looks alone, and from a shallow angle. celebrities will work best.

for girls, i think the australian model gemma ward is just stunning. she reminds me of some waifish litle alien babydoll. that might not seem like a compliment, but it really is. from a fashion/editorial perspective.

guys... so difficult. so, so, so. but going on pure looks, jake gyllenhaal. he's just so soft looking but at the same time rugged and manly. total package in the looks department.

thank you! i wouldn't think so, but, hey.

I don't so much mind how as much as when. I'd like to live long enough to have children and see them grow up.

I'd like to get my jaw aligned. I've technically already had plastic surgery though :-X Very minor, but still.

she got him a promise ring?

Well he moved on & if she's a smart girl she'll make the best of her capabilities to love and direct her feelings towards someone who can do the same for her. Ultimately she'll be happier.

all the words in it just flow through me. i like the feel of it. i like the controversy. i love the references to poe's "annabel lee" which is my favorite poem. i can't really explain why it's my favorite book, it just is.

no, i haven't. i could never kill myself because there'd always be the effect it would have on everyone else that i care about in my life. i know what it's like to lose someone i love, and i couldn't intentionally make people i love feel that way.

why do you feel that way? i mean to some degree we all do.. i've had my moments where it's so severe, the misalignment of the inside and outside, but you can really always change the outside. it feels like you can't, but you can. i feel like i'm proof of that. but killing yourself proves nothing. because then you're not anything. you're just dead. and that's a waste of who you are and who you could be.

No. Apparently you are?

Yuck. The fever is so annoying. One minute I'm hot and the next minute I'm shivering.

.00001 :)

you and me both!

i'm okay. i don't necessarily feel sick.. i've just had a low grade fever and some nausea. what really sucks is just how much my leg hurts! i can barely walk on it, but i'm hoping tomorrow i'll wake up and it'll be better. i've had two rounds of IV antibiotics and i'm going back for a third tomorrow and then they'll decide whether they want to admit me to the regular hospital. ew. i'm hoping i'm better tomorrow!