I always found this question really awkward.

Because the fact of the matter is that this isn't just "a slump", like this isn't something that any ol' person gets once in a while where they're just a bit down and feeling bad.

Like, this is kind of my life. I always feel this way, I get worse, but it's like.. is better "Not wanting to hurt myself" or "Feeling less like a pile of junk but still feeling like I am a pile of junk"

Because I could probably say it's a mixture of the two. I guess I am "better", but what is really "better"?