Let's talk about non-superficial friends??

  • Sylvana Fernandez

    haha, oh, must we? okay...it's a long story.

    the *worst* non-superficial friend I ever had was someone who let their significant other order them to stop talking to me because, after hearing for months about how said SO would mistreat him I finally had to say something about what an unhealthy relationship it was/how concerned I was. After cutting me off completely, this person came back like a month later (when they broke up) apologizing (I forgave them), only to get back together with his gf and delete me off of everything again within like, 3 weeks.
    All of this happened during this one summer where everything else in my life wasn't going so well and the low blow of being pushed aside that way not once, but twice, by someone I cared about so much was probably the most painful thing that had ever happened to me (up till then, at least).
    We didn't speak or see each other for a year or so after all that and it was both a great and a terrible thing because I still found myself unable to be mad at this person...I'd miss them, get home with a funny story to tell and not feel like I had the right person to tell it to, it's just something I carried around with me even when I was out having fun with new people I'd met.
    A couple of months ago he randomly added me on facebook with this short, half-assed apology that for some reason I decided to accept...we hung out twice after that while it was obvious that I still really wanted to be forgiving and let them back into my life as if nothing had happened before, the person I'd been so worried about protecting/the person I'd loved being around so much in the past wasn't the one in front of me. The trust was gone and the hobbies in common were gone and he was being a jerk and just doing all these stupid, reckless things that even put me in danger while I was around him, so I had to choose to make that 2nd time the last one I saw him at all...I sat outside on a balcony by myself crying about it for like 3 hours and shortly afterwards left his place, and I haven't looked back since.
    I don't ever think it's caused me that much suffering to part ways with a friend, so yeah...that's the story.

  • Sylvana Fernandez