I wasn't at first but then as we got closer to the birth I just starting thinking all these crazy thoughts like, oh my god am I going to drop the baby? It's neck is fragile so will I hurt it somehow? What really calmed my fears was actually having the baby there to hold and to look at because now it's this tangible thing not just an idea anymore. I have a lot of my own experience with my Dad to draw from so hopefully that helps me with my little one.