it used to be this lil tree where i'd smoke and relax and think... but then the big G cut it down ¬¬.

then it moved to my back garden in essex, where i could lay on my grass and share the moon....but then i stopped sharing it and the magic left.

then it moved to a place in london, where i felt like all my loose ends were frayed and hanging loose...but then i came to my senses =P

then it became a bench in a park in cambridge, where i finally felt accepted and a part of something good.... but then i moved further into cambridge-

now? hmmm...i couldnt tell you; i havent been alone in a long time (=

hah! because formspring is dead now =P talk on faaaacebooooooook miiaaaaa, its much easier =P.

i didnt show up because you guys didnttt! i was waiting missy :P.

im not ill in the slightest. freaking tired, but thats why im already in bed (=.

Ebbesen. RIGHT.

i may end up calling you Miia Webb or something. iunno, you norse folk with your crazy names =P

hahah hey miia =P sorry i never got to answer this, i kinda dont use formspring ever anymore (logged in because, well, my good friend procrastination advised me to)

i'll tell you what i did for christmas, instead.

i started at cambridge, where we had a christmas party, and we ended up spending nearly two whole days in just our livingroom hahah, it was one of the loveliest events ive had at uni so far ^^ we all bonded lots, which helped for leaving the house for christmas, as it was the first time we'd be away since we'd moved in.

we went christmas pubbing, had carol singers sing us the classics and the turning-on-the-lights event, the darkness played in the town centre and basically, Cambridge turns into a 1950s postcard during the whole of december =P.

on christmas eve, my sister, sarah grabbed me on the way down the country, and we drove home. my mum had played true hostess for the first time in hmm.....20 years i believe =P. until this september passed, she hadnt lived alone in 20 consecutive years....so give her three months of freedom and she'd prepared an entire buffet in anticipation, along with decor and the works =P.
my siblings all arrived back that night, but i wont bore you with "and then we all caught up with each other, ahah ahah ahahhh!" because we did. :P.

my brother brought his cats, though, and on catnip those bastards were GONE. infact, we had 5 stoned cats at one point. there's not much funnier to watch on christmas day tbh =P.

i got to see a few close friends back in essex, but i'll admit now, that i have moved to cambridge now. i visit essex, i live with my uni-mates ;-)

new years i came back to cambridge and we had another party that lasted two days =P.

since then? WORK WORK WORK. i have also become the new proud owner of a Bearded Dragon, though. =P. i had to talk to some reptile dude for two hours before he'd let me have his prized lizard, but by the time the lil creature had found a nice little vantage point on my shoulder, there was no chance i was gonna let him go hahah. since then, he loves cuddles! he's like a little dopamine addict hahahahah, he sits in the basking spot all day and is clumsy as heck when it comes to eating crickets hahah.

i need a name that is both draconic, but not cliche. classy, but not old fashioned, and dangerous but not scary =P.

the cute girl who had been his carer in-store called him douglas.

....thats not his name.


so YEAH! thats my christmas mrs ebbeson(sp?)!!

thanks for asking ;-) x

hehe, didnt think anyone would still use this, let alone ask me things... hmm. currently, it's http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KDKva-s_khY&ob=av3e

havent seen it in quite a while, but it came on whilst clubbing not long ago, and i realised that since i'd heard it, i'd changed a lot. it was a nice feeling, so yeah this'll do ^^

Play

nearly two days late!!!

anyway...lemme see if i can find it...

jeez, that took me like 5 mins (which is years in interweb speeds :P) to find... underground music, wonder if it becomes a hit or anything =P

anyway, here it is- my suggestion? get BLAZED (drunk, officer), lay back with someone close to you and close your eyes....highest definition for best audio...

thank me later ^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3iUuWK0jgHk

Play

jeez, i know >.<.

some of my friends were evacuated from uni yesterday, and rumours are creeping up that there are more in cambridge, and one in Hornchurch...

it'll be fiiiiiiiiiiiiine =P

i already texted my mummy telling her not to sell my belongings but to bury me with them.

...she texted back saying she'd pawn the lot of it. ¬¬. cheers mother.

bagels huh? and £5 a dozen, not bad.
i'll guess that this is a riddle, because if you just typed a load of bollocks to me, then you should go get a doctor to check ya for psychopathological problems.

the answer to your question is that you were already a multi-millionaire, and by selling the bagels at a reduced rate, soon enough you'd lose so much money that you became..."a millionaire".

again, nice riddle if it was one.

i LOVE irony and hyperbole sattire. tell me an intelligent joke that completely wrecks something i love, and so long as it was intelligent i will be crying with laughter. i appreciate thought that goes into jokes and story-telling.

just dont tickle me.

someones lost a tooth from trying to tickle me. im not joking. and thats not a warning, my body goes into pilot mode if you try. i have no control over it (i was going to type "like a headless snake" but tbh that sounds too dramatic for tickling, plus....well wtf is a headless snake going to do?)

i CERTAINLY do NOT get along with everyone. i can tolerate most, i can engage in friendly chitchat with most, but one character flaw of mine is the ability to empathise with someone i just cant warm to. i surround myself in warm, lovely people. i've done extremely well in doing so this year, but if i dont get along with someone i simply choose not to spend time with them. you want me to name one person i dislike?

im not going to do that. but not because i dont want to offend anyone- ask my friends, offensive is my middle name sometimes =P. i just dont want to make anyone feel as if they arent good enough. if i dislike someone, its not automatically assumed to be THEIR fault, afterall.

right now? hmmm... well i've got some of the lads in the house atm, they make me laugh my ass off, i've got some wonderful girls who'll surely visit or stick around today who cook and clean and-uhh..i mean..i love to chat to them...
and i've got you, whose interested in my happiness ^.^
so right now, im happy for a few reasons (=

nose, index fingers, middle knuckles, little knuckles(which now dont exist anymore, that fucked me up when i realised), left wrist, several toes, moved my kneecap down my shin before, but it slid back up (yeah im sorry for that image just then), i also had my jaw cracked, but that was for my teeth braces hahahah

a yank, huh? well my favoUrite coloUr is certainly purple. has been since i was 13 or so (= what about yours?

i have changed, a great deal in the last year. unfortunately for the integrity of whoever it was making those abusive posts, i've moved to cambridge and changed a lot about myself since, and said anonymous abuser hasnt known me for the past year; alas they cant claim to truly know me anymore.

what am i hiding? a lot. infact, im hiding so much, i dont even think i want to revisit some parts of it. thats not me being dramatic, thats me saying "if somethings only gonna feck me up when i think about it, why bother trying to resolve it?"

i used to get into fights a lot. i enjoyed the adrenaline and such.

i believe now, that it was my version of self-harm.

believe me; i've changed (=

hahahah alright, nice edge....
if you consider your own life, you've spent your time learning, thinking, comprehending and taking on the knowledge of the last generation, to then reform and recreate it for the next after ours...
your parents taught you how to earn things, your friends taught you how to think of what you deserve;to smile, to laugh, or maybe you thought it was better to utilize them to benefit yourself, and create a better life- or perhaps you havent had the best childhood...
perhaps you feel scorned and belittled, punished for things you were too young to understand, let alone accept guilt for, or maybe you were taught to hurt others, that power equals negative influence, and that the ends justify the means...
if you are reading this, you own a computer- or an iphone, or android, or something just as expensive to be thankful for. perhaps you borrowed a friend's phone, or perhaps you took it from a person you believe didnt deserve it in the first place.
i have so many questions for you, stranger. you just truly cant grasp how little i know about you, and how much i'd learn if i asked just two questions, if not three, four, five... or a whole conversation.

but just one question is what i have...so, here it is...

Stranger, are you Entitled or are you Grateful?

my mood? well im thinking about a particular someone (for good reasons, dontcha worry!), so i feel a bit silly and happy. im fixing up a computer which is finally nearly done, so i feel successful, im relaxing with pirates of the carribean on in the background and im thinking about things i have to look forward to in the near future, and yet i feel like some unknown things are just round the corner... i used to always see those things as scary bad things that could happen... now i am willing to simply wait and see ^.^

simply put..my mood is this song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L2t2RPQE2sk

Play

when you find their identity, keep it to yourself until i ask for it. and then be sure not to post it here, but to somewhere you consider private.

i'll thank you for putting in the effort to stop this nasty attention, but i really do not condone whatever mode of conduct you are using to find these facts out- mainly because i dont know what you are doing.

make sure not to do anything illegal.

i dont know who you are, stranger. all i know is that you wish to cause me unhappiness, and for that, i want you in my life for as little time as possible. you know so much about me? get me a real message, instead of silly formspring anonymity; preaching of cowardice only serves the purpose of hypocrisy otherwise.

i have a feeling i know who this is =P.

do your fun digging, just no breaches of privacy. if you get into international shit i dont wanna be an affiliate xD

and no, i have a good idea of who it is, and tbh i'd rather not know for certain. will bear in mind your offer in the future though (=

thats unnecessary. i've not recieved any more hate. thanks though, lets just move past this silly little road bump.

no, i dont get a lot of shit thrown at me really. im mainly liked, have no one who'd want to outright hurt me... i just have a few bad stories to tell. and this particular person has unfortunately fallen into one of those bad stories.

i handle it because i believe in myself. you can too, norman. you're not a bad person, and so defending yourself should become an unnecessary, unimportant event.

more importantly, never ever give this kind of grief to another. its mean and hateful, and there's enough hatred in the world already.