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      Sorry in advance if I sound mean, but this pony had enough petting and hugging and needs somebody to seriously ride it (wow, clever pun, clever) instead of being locked in the stable.

      My trust in humanity and people is in record-time low due to my background (and my period), so playing Daddy-Long-Legs is not going to help, especially if the person is not 'perfect' when they reveal her/himself, in which case very likely otherwise they would not need to conceal themselves.

      Instead of spending the time together to understand our flaws and differences, an immediate revealing and an accumulation of anticipation will bring ultimate disappointment to both you and me.

      And even if the person is 'perfect', there is no way for me to give the person back my love, which will bring frustrations to myself. You can suggest me to emancipate such positive feeling of being loved anonymously to other anonymous people, but I don't need that because I am already doing it with the energies of my friends. Meanwhile, the lack of solid love forms a hole in my head, and that's a problem to be solved by direct love not passive love.

      The only possibly of a secret admirer redeeming her/himself is if the anonymous gifts are as important as saving my family from a war zone or something like that. Then I will love them regardless of who they are, for sure.

      So come reveal yourself, for we can spend much quality time together, than us being stuck in our bedrooms on Saturday nights wondering how the others were doing, like being stuck in their bedrooms.

    3. Pak-Kei

      I would love the ability to transform into anything! Like... transform into a unicorn! And... I guess, a unicorn. Maybe with wings. That's all. And only change back occasionally for a pair of hands.

    4. Pak-Kei

      I eat beets every day and have unicorns groom it to make sure they stay pink and long!

      Well. The truth is, it's pretty easy to do, once it get through the initial hurdles, both physical and mental.

      The physical hurdle: Get the hair bleached and then dye. Not being perfectionist and bleaching all the way to the roots saves me from lots of unnecessary pain (and scalp mutations). It usually takes half a day, just sitting. Luckily, my hairdresser Boots is great talker!

      The mental hurdle: I was shy initially to go out on the street, though at the same I forced myself to overcome it for it is on top of my head! There will always be people looking, speculating, commenting, appreciating (elderly moms are the best), weirded out, harassing and jeering (high school kids are the worst).

      Life goes on, as long as I like it and feel like myself.

    5. Pak-Kei

      I am a flying peacock only on stage, for performing a song, or doing a presentation. And after that I went right back into my turtle shell.

    6. Pak-Kei

      I was listening to "New Year" by Death Cab for Cutie to kickstart this year. And then there was Beck, Grizzly Bear, Bloc Party, and Antony & the Johnsons (per Zev's re-recommendation).

      Also tried "This is it" by Michael Jackson but it wasn't that good.

    7. Pak-Kei

      Wow. The first question is actually quite sensitive. As we all know, our desire to dress as a zombie or a mummy largely has to do with our psychological condition.

      One wants to be a zombie largely when they are depressed by daily routine, or are outraged by an authoritarian government. In short, human life under such conditions are no matter than zombie lives... but at least zombie lives are more entertaining.

      I am in neither condition, so I would not be a zombie.

      A mummy, meanwhile, comprises of a few concepts. First, a mummy was made for one to be preserved for long life, thus a symbol for power, but yet to be released. Second, since the power has yet to be released, or possibly may never be released, it is a symbol for submission.

      I am more interested in the latter state of a mummy, for its sexual quality. (despite it is smelly)

      Therefore, I'd rather be a mummy.

    8. Pak-Kei

      Made! Made-lena kind of made!

      It depends. I sometimes admire people people who are happy with very few things. Those people, despite their mundane lives (as perceived by us A.D.D. people), are able to survive with very minimum: Just food, an occasional chat, work. That's all.

      At the same time, the world will be scarce of any sort of adventure and excitement if we are happy so easily. Though there's the price of constant depression (since "nothing is happening!") for bursts of excitement and happiness, it's worthwhile.

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