Step the hell in, obviously. I know a lot of people wouldn't but I'm not one of those duck-and-hide kinds of guys. If something is going down, I'm balling up and diving in. For sure.

There are a bunch of differences, but most of the differences are something physical rather than core. I'm in a pretty good place emotionally and mentally, though I want to continue maturing and growing. Still, the differences I want to make are to better myself and to bring down the level of rampant body dysphoria, so I feel more like myself.

My purpose in life..? Hard to know at this point. I think I'm hear for a great many reasons, some of which I know, most of which I don't know about yet or fully understand... if I had to think of just one, even, I think I would have to say that it would be to see things that few people see and try to give others some kind of hope.

At this point the activity I do MOST in a day is probably check facebook. It is a shameful, SHAMEFUL addiction that I should really work on curing but... For the past year I've unabashedly become the biggest dork about it. Second most is probably walk around aimlessly, staring at the food in the cabinets and never eating.... another thing I have a tendency to do is talk to my animals in high pitched, annoying babying voices... or watch videos on youtube.


For the record, I almost never check my email. Seriously. It's kind of a problem. I guess if I had a desktop program that checked it I would be okay, but I have so many newsletters that come in I'm literally like "fuck that shit." I only check it like once every two weeks AT BEST.

At worst it'll be like five months before I even glance. My inbox of unread messages is always above 600, usually in the 1,000-2,000 ballpark.

I find it really hard to not be sentimental about the items that I own but there are a lot that I could give away... uhmm... something I'd be "okay" with giving away are some of the PS2 video games I haven't played in years. Something I could never, ever give away... Putting aside answers like toys from childhood that are basically a "duh", in my opinion, or pets I'd never want to part with, I would never give away any of the things that had been sent to me from friends of mine, made or given to me... I still own all of the boxes, notes and other things that my friend Anna sent to me that simply contained the items she was sending.

Usually with my fingernails... Is there a better way to do it? I'm very careful, of course, not to actually scratch my eye... but.

My medication makes me legitimately tired anyway, so not usually, no. I used to take something to help me sleep at night, but my sleep restlessness is typically easy to conquer. I just have to stop myself thinking. To do it I usually lay in bed and play a jewel-shifting game like Bejeweled until I can fall asleep. That kind of mental activity is very second nature to me and has a calming effect on my thoughts. I don't have to think about it, I just go through the motions and do it... so, yeh, that's helpful

The last legitimately "awesome" book I read? Wow... Uhm... Going back a ways because I've been slacking on my reading a lot, but probably The Subtle Knife by Philip Pullman. That entire series is great (even though I haven't finished the third book yet), so yeah, I'd have to say that.

Think it's fucking bullshit. We've known about the existence of the alleged "13th sign" for years. Shit's nothing new. On top of that, the revision applies only to the Zodiac which still is based on the constellations. Western Zodiac ISN'T. Western Zodiac is based on seasons, which means practically everyone, save for a few select people who choose to follow the Eastern Zodiac, has nothing to worry about.

Talk to any astrological expert and they'll tell you it's smarter to follow seasonal. For one thing, it actually works. For another thing, I fucking hate whoever started this mess by writing that awful article in the first place.

Uhm... I've come close to forcibly removed from places a few times. As in, "get the fuck out" with the threat of bodily force if I didn't comply, but no, I've never been forcibly removed.

I've gone that route, trying to be emotionless. It doesn't work very well for me. I guess the furthest and the "best" I've gotten has been being very coarse and rude, so that no one wants to come close to me. ...I'm not sure how I feel about it anymore.

I think it's unfair to keep a cat indoors, to be honest. I know there are a lot of times when it's safer to keep a cat indoors, but their lives are dedicated to adventure outside. Our cats always used to be indoor/outdoor cats, they'd come in and go out as they pleased, wandering for a bit and returning home to curl up in bed with me.

That being said, I'm not really sure what the "right" path is for keeping cats. Outside all the time seems cruel, not only to the cat but to local wildlife that may hurt it. Inside all of the time seems the same, even if there are toys and other activities present I don't believe those are substitutes for getting them outside to check around.

I guess my preferred solution is something like a cat leash where you can take them out for a while every now and then, make sure they don't get into any kinds of trouble but also give them the option to safely check out the outdoors. Either that or a fenced in (with very high walls or a pen that goes up and over like a ceiling) area or yard where they can play.

It's my experience and opinion that "zero" or "calorie free" or "sugar free" things are worse for you, health-wise, than the originals because of all the chemicals that they put in them to make it that way. Also Aspartame is disgusting and terrible for you, and I'm prone to bouts of depression because of Phenylalanine (which is a chemical that Aspartame breaks down into), like a lot of people, so I tend to avoid anything that contains it.

Splenda is all right though.

Favorite member questions aren't fair. I used to say Bill, before I knew any better, and then I'd say the twins, and now I really know that I respect and love all of them. Even if I pay the twins more attention because they're the more "visible" (media wise) members of the band, I do think of Gustav and Georg and I always want to know what's up with them, as well. I love the whole band, all of the boys are wonderful.

My favorite Tokio Hotel song is CONSTANTLY changing, but right now it's probably the German version of "Alien". I've only heard the English version once and it freaked me out because I'd heard the German one about 200 times before then.

"EVERYTHING IS WRONG!"

I'm not sure what I believe. The thought of being dead doesn't frighten me, but the thought of the sudden "stop" of everything makes no sense to my brain. I don't think human beings are meant to be able to comprehend it, coming into existence and then leaving it, but I try to believe there's something more if only because it's the only way I can cope.

Freak right the fuck out. As soon as I knew something was in the house, I'd be freaking right the fuck out. Regardless of if I had lights or phones available.

Prey drive. Some breeds were created to hunt animals and it shows in the way that their minds work.

Never done E, pot, acid/LSD, shrooms, meth, coke/crack, PCP or any of your other typical street drugs or chemical highs.

I did, however, have a very long stint of addiction to prescription pills. And I got myself away from those - on my own - but if you ask anyone who I was friends with at the time, I was taking much more than the maximum dose for a single day in a single sitting. They could tell you I was utterly dependent on them for a while and that the pills still weren't doing a thing for my anxieties or my depression. I would just get high to get away from it and from my body.

Ever since then I've been very careful about what I let become a habit, and what I let into my body.

Obama. Just because I wouldn't want to with any other politician.

Suburbs and rich people. A lot of people think we think we're the best ever or sommat..