I've been told Hilary Duff but I don't see it at all lol

Noooope, wanting to get my next one sometime soon though! Just waiting until I get caught up on my phone bill and start a savings account and then a tattoo is next on my list ;)

I've been living, hahah. Just getting by, I guess. Confused and just trying to find my place in the world, as lame as that may sound. Working with a little bit of school on the side. I'm a shitty person now, for the most part. Idk. Thanks for asking though - hope you're doing well :)

I'm currently an employee at a local gas station which doubles as a pizza and sub making job as well. Once I further my education, I'd like to become a mental health nurse.

I haven't been on much + without the direct question tab, it is difficult for me to find questions directed towards me. My inbox has a ton of questions that I have yet to have the time to sort through yet so please don't think that I'm ignoring your questions or anything like that. :( I'll get to them eventually!! And feel free to resend questions, because who knows, Formspring might have 'lost' some of my questions.

I've learned that love should never be forced nor should it ever be given out of pity or because it feels owed. I would never want to be stuck with anyone simply because I feel like I'm obligated to love them and care for them, which I feel is why my parents stayed married for 13 years. I cannot fathom spending thirteen years with someone who I don't truly want to be with. My parents' failed marriage has taught me to be more careful with my heart, not to rush into anything, and to remember that some things will never change so there is no point in getting into something expecting someone to change, because chances are, it won't happen. I won't spend my whole goddamn life waiting around for anyone for anything. I've did enough of that already.

I don't feel as though I must do it, no, but I do feel pressure to make it happen someday because it is something that I want. Like most melodramatic teenage girls, I fear not ever finding anyone and ultimately living a lonely, sorrowful life. I do not want that at all. I also wouldn't want to pursue a relationship with someone if I felt that it could never possibly reach such a point someday. If I'm going to date someone, I wouldn't want to date them just to date them. I'd hope to be able to see a future with them or else it'd be rather pointless and kind of just sitting myself up for disaster, which I would rather not do.

It's highly unpleasant. I don't enjoy being lied to, led on, disrespected, or just wrongly treated in general. It bothers me greatly and makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. I deal with situations differently depending on external and internal factors; sometimes I isolate myself and throw myself a pity party but then there are times where I take my anger out on those around me. Totally just depends. I wish I was able to deal with that type of shit in a more mature manner but meh

I was best friends with a girl for ~2 years before our best friendship fizzled out. She got into a relationship with my ex - knowing that I was uncomfortable with it, might I add - and we never seemed to fully recover after that. We're still acquaintances who speak from time to time, but she's a totally different person now. Married with a child and another child on the way. (Not with my ex...she had a weird phase after him resulting in her first pregnancy) She hates kids. I'm still confused but yah know, whatever makes her happy, aye?!

Oh, and my friendship with my absolute best friend has kind of fizzled out a bit due to her having her head up her boyfriend's ass. Relationships really do ruin friendships during teenage years, man. Fuck.

Tonight after working a long, stressful shift at work and then coming straight home and completing quite a few english assignments, I devoted an hour or so to unwinding and destressing. I participated in a few relaxing activities and cooked dinner for myself. Now, I'm completing my relax/unwind process by wasting some time online until I feel ready to sleep.

One night when tripping LSD in the city at a new friend's house with my boyfriend, we decided to leave in the middle of the night (3 AM) and walk to the closest gas station, which was two streets away. Two streets with one being the most watched, highest crime rate street within the county. And this was during the peak of our trip so it's safe to say that we were totally tripping balls and very unstable. Walking at that time, under the influence of that, on that exact street was probably the worst idea imaginable - anything could've happened. We could've got taken advantage of, a cop could've stopped us, we could've gotten hurt; anything. SUCH a dumb idea that I immediately regretted as soon as I started walking up the street, yet, I was unable to turn around because I had lost track of where I was. My paranoia was at its highest and I was terrified. Then, after arriving to the gas station, we were aggressively approached by two of the scummiest looking guys imaginable and asked if we knew where to get some bud. Who the hell approaches randoms at a gas station at 3 in the morning to ask for weed? Oh, right, fiends. Nasty ass low life fiends. Ugh. Never had I been so happy to arrive back at someone's house that night...the sense of safeness was overwhelming. Such a scary yet exhilarating memory I have. I still want to kick my ass for taking such a stupid risk tho.

Probably Ain't No Coming Down by Juicy J ahahahah

Not at this point in our lives and our - loosely using this term - relationship. Maybe we could discuss it being a possibility in the future or something but it's a definite no for now.

Coming down from an intense LSD trip this morning while experiencing PMS symptoms and insomnia...so many negative thoughts occurred during the early hours. Ugh.

I'm definitely not looking forward to having to pay $150 of my tax money towards my mom's phone bill Friday, but because our phones are currently shut off due to her negligence of paying her half of the bill, it's my only choice if I want to keep my phone. I also hate that I had to pay extra on the bill the past few weeks, and I really hate that she made my dad take some of MY money to go pay on her bill the other day, but it's whatever. Well, no, it isn't whatever. I'm sick and fucking tired of having to pay for her shit and it isn't even enough. I've put so much money into our phone bills these past few weeks yet they were still shut off because she couldn't even come up with half of what she owed for her bill. So pathetic. I just hate being here.

Totally went off topic there but ugh..just so annoyed.

I buy food, cigarettes, etc. all the time for my guy friend. I'm always wanting to help him out because I care about him and because he is currently unemployed and struggling to find employment right now. I know he probably wouldn't really do the same for me lol but I'm just a nice person so idk

Hmm, I don't think that I do. I do; however, have this weird thing that causes me to sneeze when thinking about anything sexual when I'm in tha moood. It doesn't always happen but it happens quite often and has been happening for as long as I can remember. So strange..I have no idea what causes it.

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I asked him and he said no lol. But the other day he told me that he thinks he's in love with me. So confused. I think he's bullshitting though.

I am working on it