Great! How are you doing? :)

It may seem like a lost cause right now, but if you are hoping to make any progress in terms of knowing where you two stand- attempting to mind read isn't going to get you there. Communication is key in any friendship, and especially in any relationship. It takes two! My best advice to you is to talk to her and be honest about how you feel. I know that hearing that is probably a little straight forward for you, seeing as there are other factors to put into the equation, but above all it's important that you two are on the same page. It isn't fair to you that you are stuck trying to start a relationship with a girl that might just consider you as a friend. She needs to know how you feel so that you two can figure things out.

Keep your mind open. This coin doesn't just have one side! I think at this point it is important to communicate your feelings. If she feels the same, great! If she doesn't, then you have the opportunity to finally move on because you have closure. Do not force yourself to run around in circles- there is an out. It just involves a little bit of guts and openness. She is your friend, remember! She will either know how to take it properly or not. In one case, she is supportive and things aren't awkward.. In the other, I guess you find out who your true friends are. Regardless of the outcome, it's important that you know in what direction to start walking in. You are your own person and you should never let anybody or anything hold you back! Go for it and talk to her- the worst that could happen is that she doesn't feel the same way. You will feel better knowing the truth, and from there on knowing where to go from then on.

I hope this advice helped, and I truly hope that you make the decision to talk to her!
Best of luck to you in every and any case.
Mae

You are more than welcome love, and I'm glad to hear it :)

If by "are" you mean "do" and by "a" you mean "eat" and if by "good" you mean "baby" and by "dancer" you mean "brains".. Then yes. I am a veeeeeery good dancer.

I too, nyan from time to time.

To each their own! I personally like them, as long as they are put together with the right outfit.

To be honest, I think you know the answer to your problems- but you just want reassurance.
You know what you deserve, you know what's best for you, you know what to do from here. Although I can't be "sure" of what "doing stuff" means because "doing stuff" can range from actually doing favours for him, to having sexual relations and/or physical relations with him. I won't judge what you mean and ramble on about something that you weren't even communicating, but regardless of the situation, he yells at you and gets upset with you for the wrong reasons. Point blank.

Ask yourself, are you happy in a relationship with someone that forces you to do stuff that you are uncomfortable with? How about just the fact that he forces you to do anything? Do not waste your time on somebody who has it in him to push you around and yell when you refuse. That is not a relationship, that is an ownership.. And you are certainly not property.

I can't and I won't tell you to break it off. You are the ultimate decider of what you are to put up with. I can tell you; however, that you are in what appears to be an unhealthy and dominant relationship- and it doesn't get better from here unless you truly put your foot down. Even then, stubborn personalities and/or completely ignorant people are a dime a dozen, and he might not even see what he's doing wrong. Talking to him about it firmly without giving in is your first and most important step. If you have tried that, then I think you have your work cut out for you. You are too good for him and you should move forward by moving forward. Do you know what I am saying?

I hope that you see your true worth and your independence soon. You are worth much more than anybody's slave, nor are you anybody's property or fuck buddy. See that in yourself and trust me, you will find better.

Absolutely not! I think that it is completely up to the personality within the individual. Of course girls (in general) tend to be more outgoing and verbally expressive, but I don't find that it gives me some kind of "free spirited advantage". I have met some really shy girls, and some loud and expressive guys! Everybody is different, and so are their personal bubbles! Some are just easier to pop than others :)

There is no doubt that this is a lot of work- even though I don't consider it to be work at all. It takes dedication and patience, as well as an open mind. There were days when I hated myself and wanted to stop, and where I got so stressed out over my overflowing inbox that I would cry. But I also remember the days where I would get one inbox after the other with people chain linking off of one another everything that I have done to positively influence their lives. I remember being so HAPPY I cried. I remember how this website changed me from being insecure to being positive, confident and head strong. You guys have done more for me than anything I have ever done for you- how could I not come back?

Of course I have to focus on school and working for when I leave for University next fall. I haven't dropped my future plans but rather, adding formspring to them! I will be doing this at my own pace and I wont let myself stress out over it. I will do it all when I know I can- and that will be good for me. I missed running this page.

Regardless of whether or not you're happy with the decisions you've made, and whether or not you recognize it yet- they have shaped you and matured you for what comes next. You can't take back your virginity, but you can take this as a negative experience that positively changed you.

It'll be hard to understand now, especially since you are still coming to terms with the situation and working to move on from it- but there will be a time when you look back on your experience and be thankful for what it taught you. It will help you to cherish future partners. I can tell you from experience that the story behind losing my virginity is one of the worst experiences I'VE ever had, and I didn't have sex again until 3 years later. I made the mistake of losing my virginity when I was 13 years old to a guy 2 years older than me- he completely fucked me over and made me feel useless and disgusting. It takes time to heal from that. I would never tell you to rush into it or to get over it- everybody's healing periods take longer than others. I can't tell you to do anything but to do your best to allow what happened to you to change you for the better- and to not let it cloud over you. This was not a mistake. I truly believe that you can either let this make you or break you- you have the power to do either. One is easy, one is unbelievably hard. But neither are impossible, and it is completely in your hands.

You make me motivated to be a better person! :)

I think that is a question best answered by my followers :)! People talk, links are shared. The internet is a crazy and unpredictable place- and I went (in the most subtle of ways) viral on here. I've lost some followers due to the lack of posting since I left, but I'm excited to pick up where I left off and move forward!

I'm sorry to hear about your injury! I really hope you're healing well and that you can be back to your regular routine soon. Rugby is a very rough sport, but it is one of the best in the world. I'm glad that I motivated you to begin playing :) it is certainly one of the most important parts of MY life!

No worries, that's not disrespectful at all. I didn't give myself that status- it was my followers that titled me as one. I think it kind of went hand-in-hand with my formspring going international. After I began receiving inboxes, emails, texts and even phonecalls from all around the world- I sort of became a face people knew (over the internet, that is). It has died down after I took my break, but I hope that my formspring reaches international level again and I get back on track with all of this.

Thankyou for asking!

From the account that you are currently writing to me on! So many of my facebook friends are my formspring followers who have added me on a more personal level :)

I do love you, Brennan. My sass never left ;)

I know nothing about that. And to be honest- it's not my business. I'm amazed to see that you think it's yours.

thank you love, i appreciate your feedback and your support!

at first the messages, texts, phonecalls etc were overwhelming, but i found that i really liked people coming to me for advice and looking at me as some sort of inspiring figure.