I'm having trouble figuring out the translation of this, but I think you might be asking if I'm going to stay on Formspring? The answer is yes, if Formspring stays up.

My Tumblr ask box!

He's fine.

Not really. I haven't seen her in like a year.

I haven't completed any songs since whatever the last one I posted on YouTube was. I have a couple of unfinished ones lying around though.

Planned Parenthood.

I was a science lab assistant for one day. I swept the greenhouse and watered and transported plants. Then I quit.

(cont'd) plans. I just feel uncomfortable and sad when people ask me where I'm going or what my plans are, because I feel like I have nothing to say. I am reasonably confident about my future though, I am in theatre and have a general good feeling about my ability to succeed. It's just that I can't say "I'm going to study _____ in the fall", and I feel like people are immediately judging me for it. Maybe I'll go back to school later, just not now. I'm not jealous really, and I don't wish I were going to a specific place, I just feel generally left out. I think this "left out" feeling is heightened today as well, because my boyfriend who is also in theatre got a callback for a job we both applied for. I was much much more qualified, but they needed more guys than girls. So even though we weren't competing against each other, I still feel a bit of resentment and left out-ness. I just feel super super left out and am having trouble focusing on good positive things lately. I feel like I can't talk to anyone who knows me about it, because it will seem like out of character petty jealously (maybe that's all it is?). So I come to you for non judgmental uplifting words as I feel those are your forte.

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When I'm in these types of situations, I find it helpful to remind myself that there's no reason for me to follow anyone else's timeline. PLENTY of people have succeeded without school; school is no guarantee of anything except a place to go and a bunch of enormous fees. Sure, it might be nice, but it's not necessary. And you can always go back to it later if you want.

You're feeling "left out" because other people have concrete stuff to do and you don't, so why not CREATE stuff for yourself to do? It doesn't have to be long-term or anything, but you could start a blog, experiment with a different career path on the side, collaborate with some friends on a theatre production, etc. It's true what people say when they say "Only the boring are bored" - that just means you have to call on your inner resources and creativity whenever you feel you have nothing to do.

I would also encourage you to discuss your feelings with your friends and your boyfriend. Not to guilt-trip them, but just so they know what's going on with you and can try to make you feel better. That's part of their job as your friends.

C'est simple!

Verses: Cmaj7, Amin7, Fmaj7, Cmaj7

Bridges: Fmaj7, G, Am, G

Royal blue. Duh.

Oh my god, so messy. I need to clean it!!!

My huge stack of journals. Some hilarious and dramatic memories in there!

Clothes for sleepin' in (a black and white striped T-shirt + red sweatpants) and my new pair of shoes that just arrived.

(cont'd) crazy professional rates?

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Well, I have a DSLR, but I'm hardly a photographer.

You could try getting in touch with Jamie Basso; he's an old buddy of mine who's studying photography at Ryerson. http://jamiebasso.tumblr.com/ I don't know what his rates are, but he's the only student photographer I know, as far as I'm aware.

I gave a talk to some high schoolers a couple months ago about sex-positivity, body-positivity, and LGBT issues. In May I'm giving a talk to an LGBT organization about sex toys.

I am really into cheesecake at the moment.

I haven't, because I get most of my sex toys and lube for free or for heavily discounted prices through my blogging connections – but I love that they have that section! It makes me smile to see mainstream retailers stocking sex products. It validates that they are just as normal and shame-free as any other health-related product.

I think it was the Backstreet Boys.

I have no idea, I'm sorry :S If that were my situation, I'd probably just give him one big gift for both occasions combined, or two smaller things that I knew he'd like.

What concert have I been to in my life? Um, lots and lots. Most recently, Amanda Palmer + Ben Gibbard.