I still haven't come up with a good solution to this, haha.

I don't think I'm going to tell him. In the future, I *would* tell a future partner after some time, but with Bacon... I've been writing about him for over a year now. There's so much history there. It'd be weird to come out and say it *now*. Most people came down on the side of not telling him, and I'm leaning toward that side as well. Which is selfish and hypocritical. If I were being written about, I'd fucking damn well want to know, anonymous or not. But I don't feel bad for not telling him -- I'd just feel bad if he found out, haha. And that makes me realize that I *should* tell him and blah blah blah.

But it's haaaaaaaaard, you guys. :(

I'm happier just writing a little bit *less* about him and sticking to topics and things that I know I wouldn't mind if someone were writing about me. I don't feel like I'm censoring myself, I just am taking his potential feelings into more consideration, I guess.

It's only awkward when he wants to use my computer and I either take the reins or breathe down his neck. God knows what he must think, especially since he's also seen past Google searches like "how to have anal sex" and "how to get an abortion in Korea" accidentally pop up. And he's seen my screensaver of saved pictures to my hard drive, which is a beautiful slideshow of all things relevant to my interests, such as cute animals, hot men, hot porn, funny porn (think of googly eyes on cocks), XKCD comics, and bad Photoshops I make.

We really need to stop using my computer.