In my current photos, I am at a BMI of around 19 or 19.5. I made it to 20, but I admit that lately, what with finals and general stress and a rough cold (and of course ED symptoms--I won't lie and I shouldn't be ashamed to admit when I'm struggling a bit), my weight has dropped a few pounds. However, I am still within a healthy range and have been above 18.5 for awhile now.

I assure you, 20 is NOT going to be scary. The healthy range is 18.5 to 25, so 20 is still on the rather low end of healthy. Everyone's body is different, too. For me, I have always been around the weight I am now (or a few pounds more), and I have been consistently getting a period now for the past several months. My hair, skin, and everything else seem healthier now too, which my doctor said is also an indication that I am near where I should be.

I can't lie and say my ED doesn't hate my body sometimes. I am still SO slender, and people tell me that all the time. Logically, I know I look fine. Hell, I look pretty damn good! But of course ED won't let us believe that. Push through it though. Recovery is worth it.

Hope that helps!!!