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I don't make NYRs, and I try really hard not make "goals". Basically, I think I can tell what I want to be doing by looking at what I'm doing, and it's generally unproductive to try to make up "goals". There's a real disconnect between the things people call goals and the things that they realize they want to do and then do. So, things frequently occur to me that I want to do, and then I go about doing them. I don't really think of them as goals, though. It doesn't really matter if I follow through or if I decide I no longer want to do that thing.
All that said... I can probably think of some things that fit into what you're actually asking about. I plan to increase the number of pigs I raise this year, which involves some more work on their new housing and the rotational grazing system before buying piglets in March. I'm really interested in reading right now and am making full use of my library, with an eye towards reading things I can review on LoveLiveGrow. I'm probably having a baby in the spring, so there are a variety of projects related to that I'd like to get done before then. I just bought a pressure canner, so I've got plans to can in-season food this year. I'm wanting to start my own garden space this spring, so I'm working on plans for that - this is the time to order seeds. I plan to run the Fucking Awesome theme camp again this year, so at some point, planning for that will commence. We're adding sheep to the homestead this year, and there's some planning and preparation still needed before we buy sheep. I just got involved in the Sweet Water Sustainability Institute, and various plans relating to that might pop up. Hmmm.... that's what I can think of right now.
Oh, yeah - I thought of a goal! I have a goal to watch all episodes of Star Trek: TNG. I'm in season 6 right now, so I'm pretty sure I'm going to make it! :-) -
By "this" you mean porn? It's very strange to ask if I can see myself continuing with porn while remaining satisfied without other things. My porn job takes up maybe 2 hours a week. It is not the whole of my existence. Neither is anyone else's job. I have a GAZILLION other things going on in my life, which are ALSO interesting, and the full sum of those things are challenging/satisfying/whatever.
Also, if I want to read something, research something, or write something, then it will be because I want to do those things. It won't be because I'm seeking "stimulation". Who DOES that? Are there really people sitting around thinking, "Hmm, my accountant job is boring, I need some creative stimulation, I think I'll join an art class?" or people thinking "It sucks to be in a cubicle all day, I think I'll join a cooking class?" Or isn't it usually true that someone joins an art class because they're interested in art or a cooking class because they want to learn to cook? Likewise, I do the things I want to do because I want to do them, not to fill some weird made-up hole in my life.
If it makes you feel better, I read a LOT and frequently research things. I have no current interest in writing a book; I get my writing out through my blog. -
That's why I put respectable in quotes in the previous question. It's not a value that I support.
I don't agree with the rest of what you said, though. There are plenty of people who object to porn who are not confused about the point of porn and who ARE self-examined people. There are other people who object to porn who are fucking idiots, but I wouldn't lump everyone who's anti-porn into the same non-critical-thinking group. -
With the "amazing student" suggestion and the reference to Challenge to Excellence, I assume by "talent" you're referring to "intellect" or something like that, and so no, I don't think I'm under-utilizing my brain. If you mean something like, "Why am I not doing something more "respectable" with my life, then no, I don't ever expect to get back to that. My school-related so-called intelligence was boring as shit. School never interested me, it was just easy.
Challenge to Excellence was interesting, but it was completely unrelated to traditional models of education. The classes I remember most are still topics that are front and center in my life. I took Open Forum more than once, which was focused on debate and social justice issues, which remain important to me. I remember taking a logic/puzzle/problem solving class which is something I still enjoy for fun and also for practical purposes, such as when I designed the rotational grazing pattern for my pigs. Another class was about strange mechanical experiments, which reminds me of the work I did building a 32 foot geodesic dome last summer.
So, if your question means something like, "Are you ever going back to college?" then the answer is a resounding "Hell, no!" But my life is and will continue to be challengingly excellent. -
Someone previously asked the question, "What are your best and worst memories of living in Harrisburg, IL as a child/young adult? Is there anything that you miss about the area?" so I'll just repeat my answer from that one:
My best memories from living in Harrisburg, IL are connected to specific people who I miss. I wish I could gather up the few people who I really connected with and bring them into my current life. I know that this is sheer fantasy, one reason being that I and they are no longer the people we were 15 years ago, so those connections don't really exist and likely wouldn't work very well today (although I'd be willing to try).
I miss the Shawnee National Forest. While I have greatly enjoyed the landscape of Georgia and now Tennessee, when I drive into Southern Illinois, I am struck with a feeling of instant recognition, "This. This is what the world looks like, and I've missed it."
I appreciated living in a place where you regularly saw people that you knew. Waving at people while driving down the road or running into people you knew in Wal-Mart or wherever. That doesn't really happen in the other places I've lived. Unfortunately, knowing all the people around you didn't really feel like a force for good in the Burg. It mostly felt like a way for people to judge you and fuck you over, so I can't say that I really miss it.
My worst memories are mostly associated with my parents. Some teachers. Racial topics. The general oppressive sense that I wasn't allowed to deviate from a very tiny box while living in Harrisburg without suffering enormous consequences. It truly feels like I barely escaped with my sanity intact. In fact, it's probably only been in just the last two years that I feel like I've gotten free from the emotionally oppressive climate I grew up in.
I really, really, really miss Mackie's Pizza. -
For clarification, I'll start with the terminology I use. I have a biological father whom I've never met. The people I call my parents, one is biological and one is adoptive. Then I have some step parents (people who married my parents), but they didn't enter my life until I was an adult (if at all) so they don't really factor in at all.
I do not think of any of my parents at Christmas time, since I don't celebrate Christmas.
In the broader sense, though, sometimes I wistfully long for my biological father, since he remains a mythological mystery. Sometimes I long for parents in the abstract sense, as in, "Wouldn't it be nice if I had loving parents?"or "I'm sad that I don't have loving parents," but I never, ever, ever, ever miss the parents I have.
I will not encourage my child to have a relationship with my parents in the same way that I wouldn't encourage her/him to have a relationship with anyone I'm not particularly fond of or whose lifestyle or fundamental beliefs I disagree with. When my child is of verbal age, I am not likely to prohibit having a relationships with whomever she/he likes. -
Re: fancy. Both/neither. I don't think there's much of a split there. My intellect/education and my experience/feeling informs everything. I wouldn't separate them into two stand alone parts.
Re: Willy Wonka. I haven't seen any Willy Wonka movies, but I'm sure they're all fine for a child of any age. I have little desire to limit what my child watches/reads. -
Probably not. I got past the entries that are in real notebooks and have moved into loose-leaf paper territory, which is harder, since they're all out of order. Then I kind of lost steam for awhile about the whole thing. Then my cat peed all over a bunch of the entries. I still have them in a plastic bag, but I'm not real excited to go in after them. And now I'm pregnant, so I'm kind of busy with other things. So, I'm not officially finished with Watching Backwards, but I doubt I'll get back to it anytime soon.
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While some of the fetishes like smoking are extremely common, different people get different things out of the same content. For example, some people like the inhales, some like the exhales, some like the look of a long cigarette in long fingers, some like the look of the smoke itself on or near different body parts. RAY (which stands for "right at you") is a particular subset where the customer wants smoke blown directly toward the camera.
Since I work entire with visuals, I don't usually know the extent to which the visual preferences spill over into real-life preferences. Presumably many of the people who enjoy smoking porn would also enjoy real life activities that involve smoking, too. -
I think I've tried everything I want to, but that definitely doesn't mean the mystery has left. Sex is a perpetual mystery, especially as you begin to exploring with a new person. I've tried many things that I didn't like, but probably the one that frustrates me the most is anal. I really *want* to like it, but it's rarely enjoyable for me. When I do like it, I *really* like it, but most of the time, it doesn't work out, so I don't even try very often anymore.
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I think this is kind of an odd question. Since almost everyone I've known in the past is still alive, and Google exists, if I really wanted to say something to someone, I would. When I do run into people from the past, I generally think of all kinds of things to say, and there are some people I can think of where the content of what we said would probably be *fascinating*. But I don't have any burning desire to say anything to anyone.
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I chose a name that's completely unrelated to my real name but that has a significant meaning to me, and then I tweaked it some to fit in well with the site I'm on. Middle name/street would not work at all for me! I grew up on Mohawk Dr. I can't see working "Mohawk" into a porn name. :-)
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I set up the area (move furniture, hang a backdrop, put out props, etc.) Then take care of the technology - set up the photography lights, locate the camera, make sure the battery is charged and there's an SD card. Then I put on the outfit for the shoot and put my hair the way I want it. Then the photos, which are pretty routine. There's not much to it - I just get gradually naked and hold a bunch of poses. Mostly what I think about is pretty mundane, too. I'm thinking, "Boobs, we haven't done boob close-ups yet." "Okay, now some ass." Etc. And sometimes I count the shots, so I know how far into the shoot we are.
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No, I never noticed that. What a strange question.
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I do not make negative judgments about the requests I get. I consider it a great honor to be part of helping people get what they want. Part of the beauty of amateur porn is that whoever you are, there's someone who's looking for you, and whatever you want, there's someone willing to provide it. There are many requests that I don't do, simply because they don't interest me or are over my legal line, but sometimes in those cases I try to help the customer find someone else who will do it. Sexual desire is an extraordinarily complex and complicated thing, and I find it really valuable and rewarding to communicate with people about their desires, whatever they happen to be.
If you are someone that I know in person, in the present, if you email me at erosissa@gmail.com I am very likely to share with you the site that I'm on. Otherwise, that's information that I'm keeping somewhat to myself. I am very public about my personal life on the internet, including things like my address, so I'm trying to keep some separation from my porn persona and my real-life info. -
The secret is about something that was really minor but embarrassing to us. It's absolutely nothing serious or interesting at all. That's part of why is remains a secret. Once it got built up (I don't even remember how other people found out there was a secret), it became even less likely that I would tell, because the overwhelming reaction would be, "I waited X years for THAT? That's the lamest secret ever."
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For a long time I cataloged my tenuous brushes with fame, like I'm sure a lot of people do. John Malkovich grew up in a town 30 minutes from my hometown. Jay Leno was in an airport at the same time I was once. My father sat next to Chuck Mangione's father on a plane once. That kind of crap. I suppose the best one I've ever spouted is that I saw Dane Cook doing stand-up before he was really famous, and I shook is hand in the lobby afterwards. Still, does shaking hands even count as meeting? Nah. And I don't really care about celebrities these days. At all. I mean, yes, if Brad Pitt wants to come over and have dinner, I will die of excitement, but I have no desire to "meet" him by spotting him randomly somewhere or paying to go to some big thing where I get to brush shoulders with famous people.
So, the real answer to the question is Silver Ravenwolf. She was at a Pagan festival I was at once, and I got a Tarot reading from her and chatted with her for a bit. Our "meeting" lasted about 30 minutes, and I paid $50 for the Tarot reading, so it's not like it was very personal, but there ya go. -
I'm doing great! I've got a gazillion things going on right now, like the four new chickens in my front yard and the dome for the Fucking Awesome theme camp that's almost ready to build after hours and hours of work and lots of great people coming out to help.
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I would go back sometime pre-jr. high and try to convince my childhood self that my parents were not right about everything; were, in fact, leading miserable lives; and were not to be trusted or listened to. I would try to tell myself, "You're an awesome person. Try to get out of here still knowing that."
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I have no idea how long I'll end up doing porn. There's no reason I can't do other things while doing porn, because it doesn't take up much time, so I don't have to wait until after porn to do whatever else I like. I have considered myself a writer at various times in my life. I'm not currently interested in "being a writer". I write lots of things - songs, blog posts, journal entries, reviews, articles, etc. - but I write them because I want to, not because I "am" a writer. In order to make things like that profitable, I'd probably need a manager. Hell, I could be making more money with porn if I had a manager. I'm just not very good at self-directed work. Or marketing. Or scheduling.
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