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asked by lacsunn"...black bear. bears eat beets. bears. beets. battlestar galatica" - Jim H. (the office) :]
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sorry again for the late response. I meant to get to this question a while back but I kept procrastinating and eventually, I just forgot I had a formspring. Anyways...
I honestly think it's impossible to HATE anyone. period. -
i totally forgot this question was still on formspring. my bad. anyways...I never said that I thought you would get over me quickly. If you read my answer to one of the other questions properly you would understand that I thought ALEX would get over me quickly when are 'fling' kind of revitalized itself around late december. And the reason I cut off the fling immediately after starting it was mainly because I didn't trust my feelings. I didn't trust my judgement. I didn't trust myself with another person's feelings. Why? Because of what I did to you. You may think I'm some kind of greedy, inconsiderate asshole who feels no remorse and you may be right about the greedy, inconsiderate asshole part but I do feel guilty. It's impossible not to. There's absolutely no way you can hurt someone's feelings and not feel bad about it. I'm sure if you're reading this, you're calling "bullshit" in your head. I don't care if you do or not. But I'm just saying that I didn't think you would get over it quickly. You either misread my previous answer or I made a grammatical error that altered the meaning of the sentence or phrase. Whatever it was, sorry. I have a conscious...believe it or not...it's in there. The things I said. I know I was wrong but in the moment I meant them. Idk if that makes sense at all. If you ever read Catcher in the Rye then it's like that passage where Holden tells Salley he wants to marry her and travel west. He didn't mean it but he thought he did...I know I'm not making sense but I'm trying my best to give you an honest answer here 'cus I think you deserve one. What more can I say but I'm sorry and that I was wrong. You're happy now right? People are defined by more than just their mistakes. That part of my past will probably haunt me longer than it will haunt you. It's hard knowing that you're a terrible person that no one will ever love. That's my problem. You're a good and genuine person. I don't care if you talk shit about me and I'm not assuming you do...anymore but if you do then I deserve it. Honestly, I hear a lot of trash about you but I refuse to join because I feel like I don't have the right after what I've done. I may make a comment here or there just to conform to everyone but yeah. I know I can't make you believe me but I'm sorry. Alright, I think I've written far too much...so much in fact that I'm not going to edit this so sorry for an typos that my have a big impact. Peace & God Bless
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oh im sorry then. i take back what i said x]
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asked by ohstfujohn
i knew it was you john -______- LOL.
you better be in my cabin..so we can DRUM LOL :] -
drumline competition always. but unfortunately, i'll be going on that retreat on february 26th because i have no choice.
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i'm sorry? idk what to say, i'm usually not too cheerful now a days. i was optimistic for a while but i guess back then i was just being ignorant and not thinking about my problems. now i think about them all the time.
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i am. i just haven't started studying for english yet because honestly...im avoiding it because i can't even identify the poems and their authors so it just a stressful subject to think about. i'll get to it by tomorrow though. CRAM SESSION
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honestly my most recent one: tia. it's not because i want her back or anything outrageous like that. if i ever do think about her...more often than not it's because i'm still guilty about hurting her last year. i'm trying to be a better person and all but then i think about that and it like holy shit...what the hell is wrong with me. it surprises me how easily i can lie to myself or how i can't distinguish temporary feelings from genuine feelings. i mean that's why i couldn't continue talking to alex earlier this year. i didn't trust myself because of what happened last year. i sure as hell wasn't gonna hurt another person. plus i knew she'd be over fairly quickly. no offense alex..but when i'm not feeling guilty i think about how we could talk for the longest time or have silences that weren't awkward turtle status but now we never talk. and i'm pretty damn sure she hates me. but i think about that and thats what i want with someone else. i mean, during freshman year i was emo over vickie but in retrospect, she was extremely hard to talk to and nothing really clicked so idk why i made such a big deal about it. maybe it just a bad habit. same thing with kimmy during 8th grade year. we didn't really talk much and when we did, they were pretty mediocre conversations at best. but then again, that could all be my fault since im socially awkward but yeah. sometimes i just think about the past and it makes me realize how weak my current friendships are..if i have any. there's hardly anyone that i can talk to for a good amount of time without having to fabricate an excuse to leave. actually, i barely talk to anyone anymore. i pushed most of my friends away... sometimes i wish i had the courage to talk to them again and fix things but yeah, im geting off topic...okay. i'just shut up now.
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i'm sorry?? i honestly didn't think i would get any questions.
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almost everything. if you to get into specifics then ask less vague questions. but yeah, i regret a lot. i've come to hate when i think about the past because it makes me feel stupid, i disgust myself with how poorly i acted and handled certain situations. then i begin to wonder that if i knew then what i know now,would things have turned out better. would my life be different?
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yup. straight c's. it only because i don't do my homework =/
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i'll bet you anything that i'll either get awkward questions or questions that i know the answer to but would rather remain in ignorance towards the matter.
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yes i made one. today has been unbelievably boring..
&& ummm, my grades. straight C's =/
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my name is chris
