Sure! Here's my profile: http://ask.fm/BEBEZEVA

Nooooo when is it shutting down? I'll copy and paste the questions I haven't answered and respond to then on Tumblr instead! :) bebezeva.tumblr.com

I'm happy it worked out for you in the end. And I mean it. :)

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I gained 15 pounds in one month from binge eating and still haven't completely found the resolve to kick the habit! I find that I eat to conquer boredom and anxiety, so if I distract myself with structured events that decrease my stress levels, I have fewer opportunities to binge eat. And when I do have the opportunity to eat, I don't do it to suppress my emotions because I'm in a mentally positive place. :)

If you can get into a routine that revolves around other activities, you'll minimize the significance of the role food plays in your life. Work committed meals into a schedule you can look forward to, that way you'll be thinking about what activities you have planned for the day instead of when your next meal (which always turn into a binging "session" for me) will be.

Also, be in touch with your emotions. Write down how you feel, maintain an eternal dialogue with yourself to uncover your motivations. Being able to identify the root of your suffering relieves stress. And less stress means more peace! A lack of peace and control is what drives us to go overboard when we eat. Food is a distraction from internal conflict. Fewer conflicts = fewer reasons to binge. :)

My sister also binge eats and has had a lot of luck with structured eating habits. She eats three times a day (NO snacks) and measures out everything she eats with precision. People who binge eat can't snack because once they start, they can't stop.

Some people romanticize their depression as a coping mechanism. They feel that if they talk about it as a "poetic condition", they will be more in control of their misery, which is chemically out of their control. No one wants to feel helpless, and acting like you want and encourage your condition maintains the illusion that depression is a choice. People simply want to believe that they are more in control of their lives than they actually are.

On the contrary, many people with depression discuss it openly and in "good humor" to seem nonchalant and cool while simultaneously inviting the sympathy and support from others. Some people fear that if they complain about their condition, they will only annoy other people. So they foster a "self-aware" persona to discuss the illness without coming across as whiny and eager. But... ultimately it is whiny and eager. (I am allowed to say this because I am unfortunately one of those people.)

And then... there are the totally relentlessly beyond all hope mopers who post incessant text posts on Tumblr about what they did and didn't do all day. They revel in the idea of having depression because it gives them a reason to ask for attention. There's no greater explanation than they just want attention. REALLY BAD. But using mental illness as a device to garner attention is both unhealthy and offensive, because it trivializes real, clinical suffering. Nonetheless, needing attention is indicative of insecurity, which is indicative of depression. Everyone needs to feel validated and desired and welcome in one way or other, and wanting attention is natural. Gotta be sensitive to those types, and those types gotta be sensitive to the people whose conditions they trifle in the process. ^-^

Bottom line is, depression sucks. And glamorizing it in film and literature with "all beautiful, artistic people have it" propaganda is destructive as fuck. It simply encourages people who seek to fulfill those beautiful, artistic roles to adopt depressive behaviors in order to feel more glamorous. Not cool.

I got them from the denim section on Yes Style! Not sure what's the specific link, but this should help: http://www.yesstyle.com/en/denims-jeans/list.html/bcc.11166_bpt.46 :)

I love wordplay, so I always try to think of something clever and visual when naming a post. Having the title reference the outfit theme is important to me because it gives the look some literal context. Sometimes people have a hard time conceptualizing my aesthetic, so I like to give them a verbal hint just in case. For "In Utero", the title was an obvious choice since my look was inspired by Kurt Cobain!

Kind of confused by what you mean by "expressing it constantly". I was warned twice -- once on formspring ("how do you know that you can trust your boyfriend?") which I did not understand at all because up until that point everything was, from my perspective, fine. The second warning was expressed through Twitter and that's when 'the situation' became obvious. I frequently referenced my awareness and respective suffering in the form of comic subtweets (Usher/Alicia Keys parallel, Karent/Rodolfo parallel) to mask my own anxiety about the fate of our relationship. I felt that if I publicized it in a humorous albeit cryptic way, I would feel less ashamed of my willingness to forgive because it was presented as a joke. After enough mental conditioning, I began to take the prospect of "emotional unfaithfulness" less seriously. That was a mistake (and a destructive coping mechanism), because I ultimately blamed myself for "J's" frustration, when it was probably not my fault. He just wanted to be with someone else in the end (and that is a huge relief to me).

What you're really asking me is why I forgave "J" when his interest in someone else was so obvious. It's not complicated. Even when he told me that he was being manipulated by his ex, I knew that wasn't true, and I knew that he was still in love with her. And I was totally fine with that. I was fine with anything because I was committed to the relationship. I was willing to compromise trust and security if it meant I could continue to be the object of his physical affection. Sometimes you just really need a partner, someone to talk to, a reason to wake up in the morning, a voice to look forward to, a best friend. And he was that to me. I didn't want to lose his presence in my life so I was willing to make any sacrifice. I really needed someone to be there for me, even if they weren't 100%.

My advice for anyone reading this: make sure you have a best friend before you seek out a relationship. Making one person your everything is a huge mistake because if you lose them (and you will, eventually) you will lose yourself, too. Self-respect <3

Unfortunately not. I wanted to move out there by myself but my mom doesn't financially support the decision. Waiting another year :( Btw I realize that my life sounds really bleak when I talk about everything I'm not doing but I swear it's not that bad... at least I'm in a spa as I'm typing this

No, but I am extremely bored. Got a year and a half before going back to school (not sure where yet) and eventually moving out of Vegas, getting a real job, socializing, working on my portfolio, switching up the routine and finding a niche!

No, I don't have regrets because I don't think I could have prevented my own personality from "happening." I didn't make any mistakes. I was just... myself... and unfortunately that's not what my ex wanted. I'm happy the relationship happened and I'm happy I had my heart broken because it changed me into a better, more self-aware individual. How can I evolve as a person if I never suffer? How can I appreciate my luxuries if they are never taken away from me? How can I recognize peace if I never experience chaos? It sounds trite and cliche, but it's actually important and sincere. Every day I get better. Not a regret in the world.

Of course!!!! Probably not going to wear anything except my Studded Rose crop top this spring/summer actually ^-^

Yeah, "Feminism Inc." by Emilie Zaslow. And all of you fashion devotees who brand yourselves with "girl power" because it's literally trendy need to read it.

Cont. I agree! I originally thought you were going to make a contradicting point about how identifying with things you earnestly like (not as a joke) would be constructive because it proffers a visual cue to members of a group that likewise accessorize symbols.

I don't think I've ever branded with an interest as a joke. I either brand with interests I genuinely like or interests I genuinely WANT to like so that I can accrue respective membership. The latter would be an example of false identity, but at the same time, the act of wanting to belong is a gesture of Real Identity. Wanting to be a member of some greater movement or niche is not a fabricated interest.

I'm laughing to myself as I type this because there are so many fucking layers to accessory. Even the choice to be pretentious is honest. I guess what I'm getting at is it seems impossible to avoid false identities, but in reality, it's impossible to avoid REAL identities.

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No.

How is that a hard feeling?

Having paid advertisements on your blog's sidebar is obviously not the same as posting sponsored blog CONTENT. The difference is that my ads are clearly ads, they are separate from my actual blog content (I try to talk about more than just what I'm wearing and where I bought it) and I don't talk about my advertisers or try to weave them into my daily narrative. The presence of my ads (again, literally separate from my blog content and on the side of the page) is not veiled in fake enthusiasm, i.e. "I really love this bogus moisturizing product from XYZ!" I don't know what the disclosure law is Singapore, but Xiaxue made not be legally obliged to mention that her posts are sponsored, thereby making her "advertorials" even more stealthy. You don't know when she's being genuine or when she's being paid. And even when you *do* know that she's being paid because she discloses that her post was sponsored, does that make the content any better or more honest????? No. It's still an advertorial.

I don't post advertorials on my blog and I don't read blogs that post advertorials. I blog about complimentary garments all the time, but I choose them myself and would deny the partnership if I didn't sincerely "like" the product/brand/retailer. My rule is, if I wouldn't actually pay for it on my own time, I won't blog about it at all.

I'm not interested in David Bowie's new album because I don't like rock music. And I'm not sure that I take after David Bowie at all -- from what I understand, he nurtured his stardom and (though conflicted) ultimately reveled in that he was an idolized ambassador of a theatrical genre that could be very easily sold to rock "consumers". If I am wrong, please correct me. Love to learn. Based on what I know, we don't have much in common. I think idolatry in pop culture is fucking gross.

LOL but let's do something constructive about our anger. Every time she makes a public statement that is misinformed or bigoted, we should make two public statements that are well-informed, sensitive, and in the interest of equality. :)

The Salon at Wynn! Go see Gianni and tell him I said HI!!!!

I answered this a while ago -- I think she's a profit-oriented blogger who does a very poor job veiling how sponsored she is. Her entire blog is an advertisement. Her soul is a paycheck. On top of that, she's made flagrantly classist and racist remarks about marginalized people. Some quotes:

''I am racist. Everyone is. If you ask me if I would rather be locked up in a
room with a Bangladeshi or a British guy I'd take my chances with the
British, because of my EXPERIENCES. I don't care how you guys start
defending and saying the Bangladeshi might be a gentle, nice guy, but
FACT REMAINS I GOT MOLESTED BY A LOT OF THEM AS A YOUNG TEEN.''

"'Are you racist too? It is UNPREVENTABLE to have views and opinions on
the various races, simply because humans have a brain and can't help
but judge."

I've said some pretty stupid shit in my youth, but I don't defend that I used to think in ideological soundbites. I admit my error and and move on. Xiaxue is the opposite -- she works tirelessly to justify her bigotry with desperate rhetoric like "I judge based on personal experiences" and "that's just how the human brain works."

Oh, just did a google search to find the original question I answered about her about found out that she called me a "self-righteous cunt" on her Formspring. So now we can add 'sexist language' to her long list of offenses. Using a slang term for "vagina" to insult someone in swathed in passive misogyny.

Also, lol @ the fact that her blog tag is bandwagon propaganda: "everyone's reading it."