First of all im not trying to act fat. Honestly if i find myself skinny i think i wouldnt have bothered calling myself fat. What kind of life do i wanna lead? I want to lead a happy life. I want to actually feel good about myself. I'm frcking sensitive about my body weight ive actually been warned. Only recently have i started to notice the change in me. I dont get why judgmental haters like you like to put people down.
Secondly, i do not, do not, do NOT, like people to know about this whole plan thing im on. What makes you think that because of that i want people to feel sorry for me? I really appreciate it but i feel so shameless when people actually do.
This is not a frivolous matter to me fyi.
Nobody knows how i feel, yes, and thats when people like you start to assume. Do i tell anyone i cry looking in the mirror etc? No. Do i tell people im selective vegetarian? No.
But somehow you narrow minded cross eyed people look at things like im an attention seeking bitch who thinks she so hot and not fat at all. Thus trying to get sympathy that im all sad because im fat and fishing for compliments. And because of that u think i tell people what i feel about myself and what i do and what happens to people. Dude I dont even want people to KNOW about this shit. Do you even know i have a disorder because of this? Im orthorexic and now my blood pressure's affected. I never did plan to say this out to anyone, not even my closest friends. I never feel comfortable saying things like these out. So i would really appreciate if you keep quiet about this, if youre reading this. Cuz anyway i might delete this. i feel so open.
Now im going to tell you why i cried on the last day of school. Its related to this. And there was a week i cried straight because i just felt so disgustingly fat. If you think im all fake, please take back your words.
I dont like talking about it because i figured that in today's society people would think im just trying to make sure people know i did something. For example, crying. I never believe in telling people you cried. Never. Its ridiculous. I think it is frcking stupid to cry over such stuff honestly. And at this age, to me, the only reason why we'll cry is over our families or hurt.


So shallow.

lizzie mcguire

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