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This is going to have to take into consideration that I am Schizoaffective and was more than likely having an episode at the time. Possibly.
Yet, I swear there is or was something in my house at the time and it wasn't all my mentality alone.
I've looked it up and they are referred to as Shadow people.
Towering, shadowy people with no features besides darkness and a humanoid shape.
Often, as I would try to go to bed I would doze but not be able to go to sleep, experiencing something like sleep paralysis when I tried to sleep. Then I would see them, small at first and fluidly moving around the walls. I knew something was there. Some nights they would stand over my bed, watching me.
But the biggest encounter was a time when I was in bed and felt like I couldn't get up, like something was keeping me from getting up and I felt the presence of something there. Just standing there looking down at me. So I turned to look to my right, because I was sleeping on the right side of the bed.
I see this thing, vague and obscure, but there. It's looking at me, I can sense it. I know it's communicating with me, trying to get my attention or maybe just waiting for me to really hone in on it's presence.
When you begin to fall asleep, you often experience a hum in your ears or a deafening silence. This was happening but I wasn't falling asleep, my eyes were heavy as hell though.
I wanted to look away from it, but I could only do it for a while, looking at the wall across my bed, a mostly empty wall where the light from my window fell, to sort of distance myself from this thing, but eventually I would just stare back up at the ceiling and to the right again.
First, it puts it's hand on my stomach. This feels like nothing more than weight, but an obvious gesture to prove it's physical existence.
Of course I was afraid at the time. Horrified. It's something I'll never forget.
But I don't look away from this thing because I'm paralyzed by it.
I look at the wall across my bed and just stare, and I feel it looking in the same direction as I am, we're both looking at the light from my window.
It says nothing about the light or the window or me, though.
Without looking away, the both of us, and to my extreme surprise, it asks me what I would do if my mother was killed.
Not if she died, if she was killed. This was the furthest thing from my mind was anything or anyone from this room, so I was plainly shocked.
The rest faded out like a dream. I remember it was a very short time this all happened. I feel like after this happened I had "drifted to sleep" but I actually sat up promptly and turned the light on.
I realize in hindsight this thing had no true hostility to me at all, maybe my mother in it's question, but to be honest I felt it's tone was more of apathy than anything else. Not apathy to me, but my mom. I'm not sure whats it was trying to say, or just messing with me, or trying to get a response. I'm going to guess the latter.
I have since been on many medications to settle my hearing and seeing things, because I was already dealing with voices and sounds that weren't there. Mostly laughter. An emotionless, repetitive laughter that seems to be mocking you. This is what really haunted me about seeing shadow people; accompanied noises and voices that are sometimes inaudible and senseless.
If you asked me to believe in supernatural occurrences, I'd be very skeptical.
But in having this experience with these shadow people, I would probably have my skin crawl at the thought of their existence -
lmao I love you anon, you put a smile on my face real quick!
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Just tha way I is, bro! (:
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I would laugh at all of them with their warrants and their children/babies and their drama
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I don't.
I don't have ADD or anything I don't think, but I have schizophrenia and my mind is always going from one thing to the next and it's really annoying and I often forget shit that I just thought of or lose my train of thought because I think of something else and become wrapped up in it ._.
I'm sorry. I have no solid solution for this.
It really depends on what it is.
Music really helps me stay on track when completing tasks but still I become distant or often dissociated and sort of drift off mentally. -
asked by Slackkbladder
Gungriffon Blaze - Cape Canaveral
NEVER EVEN heard of this game before now, but pretty cool song, aww yeah that's my new jam -
ART QUESTIONNN YES :D
-Digital-
I use Paint Tool Sai and Open Canvas for my sketches, but I always line in Sai. I have bad, shaky hands and arthritis... and while the smoothing tool is somewhat of a cop out I fully admit, it's ideal because it takes a lot less time to get those lines just right otherwise!
I want to give a tip to those who don't have Sai; Press correct in Open Canvas is a sort of smoothing tool, bring it all the way down to 6 for best results. I do like the feel of sketching in Open Canvas, but lack of rotation options and slightly better editing options keeps me sketching in Sai for the most part.
You may or may not have noticed, sometimes I skip lining altogether. I will simply change the color of my sketch and color it. Out of both laziness and I like the grungy feel of the sketch. Sometimes it looks
As far as coloring, I tend to use the selection tool and flat fill color in Sai and then color in corrections. Sometimes I will use multiple tones and such to shade and highlight. More than likely, I'll drag it over to trusty Photoshop and destroy it with duplicate layers with added gradients and filters.
I tend to favor the duplicate layer + Gaussian blur + overlay, halftone and adding line textures and distorting them.
I like coloring in digital the most because I can UNDO and also I can do so much more and can actually make things how they look in my head.
-Traditional-
I use an mechanical pencil with a 0.5 mm 0r 0.7 mm lead to sketch. Rarely, I'll use a drawing pencil for things I want to shade, but I usually don't shade until I color!
For lining, I use Sakura Pigma Sensei pens(or Microns if I'm out of Senseis.. I don't like these too much because I'm a heavy handed person who draws to hard and bends the nub) usually a 03(01 for microns).
Sometimes I will use Prismacolor Illustration Markers(actually pens) for lining and I also have a Staedtler Mar professional inking pen with tons of ink cartridges.
I erase the sketching bits with a Staedtler Mars Plastic Eraser or Sakura Block Eraser.
For coloring I favor Prismacolor in both marker and colored pencil. I do have a few Copic Sketch markers for colors Primacolor lacks, though. Like Yellowish Green, Mint Green, and Chrome Orange.
While I *try* to use Smooth Bristol for all my colored traditional art, a lot of the traditional stuff in my gallery was drawn AND colored in a Canson or Strathmore spiral sketchpad. Though recently i have been reminding myself to use the Smooth Bristol pad more often and it's turning into a sketchpad it's self!
I love the way traditional feels over digital. I honestly get bored coloring in digital, but traditional is very rewarding and fun. -
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I'm doing great! In a good mood today, just a bit... lazy! :D
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Your mangled use of the English language, with all it's pretension of what you assume someone I might associate with would type like makes me so sick.
I couldn't give a shit if you were an actual person who I may or may not know of who possibly had a crush on me. -
Formspring question of the day
asked by FormspringTGIF I want Friday's Shrimp and Ultimate Long Island Iced Tea
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Why didn't I or why don't I?
I didn't because I'm a self-taught artist like many others who have been drawing since they can remember and have the natural talent already. It's not like I woke up one day and said "I want to be an artist", and decided I should go to school for it.
I'm actually considering art school.
Not so much to get into a career, but to help my level of discipline regarding art work, and to further myself as an artist.
Another plus the the idea of art school is I've been looking towards finding other artist I can meet and collab with, it's really one of my dreams I still have, and I think meeting such people at an art school would be fulfilling. -
Thank you so much...<3 :']
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Not tell anyone and write my living will I guess.
Death is a part of living. -
To be honest, I'd probably do terrible and greedy things, but I expect most people would do the same.
But personally to me, I would be sad. I don't like the thought of being invisible to the people I love. -
It comes with the territory of being a Wiseman I suppose.
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I can't ever pick one song. You know that. Here's my favorites determined by "mood"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTchr6T9Teg
happy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nZ8iP1fnYEs
angst
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hU9kYJJTsBk
attached
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iT4xchzaxWc
lonely
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VGqBGdHcbd8
gay(lol)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kcAYBznmtUE
distant
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsHnigAMBNc
angry
I have lots more, but not within that time frame that I can think of at the moment.
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