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If it weren't so cold... Autumn. I love when the leaves start changing colors and they crunch under your feet. I love the smell of the night sky and I love that the worst thing I fear is snow and not tornadoes...
I'm also a huge fan of winter for the silence that seems to surround everything. I've even written poems about it.
Absolutely not, though I desperately long to be!!
I have a really hard time buying clothes for myself because I think everything looks crappy on me. I'm not the size that I want to be, I have a baby pooch and I don't like to spend a lot of time on my looks.
I work in a professional business and would love to look like all the other girls in the office. Well-dressed, well put together, but instead I dress like a mom. Stretchy pants, baggier shirts and runners. I'd like to wear heels and skirts and tight pants and curve revealing shirts, I just haven't gotten there yet.
Dishes and laundry without a doubt! Dishes is the one that I have the hardest time getting up off my ass and doing. The worst part is, once I'm doing it, I love doing it. It's the one area of cleaning that I can be a successful perfectionist and achieve it every single time.
It's also rather calming for me. The Boyfriend keeps the kids out of my hair so that I can concentrate on the dishes, I enjoy all the suds and it's normally the only time of the day that I don't feel like a total dweeb singing out loud to myself.
Laundry is most likely only because there's a waiting period. You have to wait up to half an hour after it's in the wash and then remember to change it to the dryer and then wait up to two hours for the clothes to be dried and it's just a lot of waiting... A lot of waiting that I have no time and no patience for...
My first celebrity crush was on Lori Petty after I saw Tank Girl. I thought she was so hot and she played the type of woman I wanted to be when I grew up.
My first male celebrity crush was definitely Donny Wahlberg from New Kids on the Block followed by Leonardo DiCaprio. Lots of people would think that it was from Titanic, but I was in love with him because of Marvin's Room. I haven't seen the movie in a lot of years, so I don't know if this still applies, but at the time, I thought that movie was absolutely epic! I was even more obsessed when I found out that his birthday is two days before mine.
This questions sucks, because I argue with myself all the time about it.
On one hand, I still think this a professional area of travel. If you don't have degrees that would get you on the NASA team, you shouldn't be going to space. It's still such an unknown and unexplored territory and I think that should be respected, by letting those with experience discover more it, until it's proven safe for the typical human to travel into. You know, the ones who have spent years in those little pods that speed you around a room so fast that your cheeks don't even jiggle a little...
On the other hand, I think it would be awesome to go to space. I'd want to go on Voyager though if I was going to go to space. Or a ship much like Voyager. Not some airplane looking thing... If I wanted a commercial flight, I'd go to Paris or the United States or even just the other side of Canada... I want to go on a Space Ship when I go to space!
I also want to go to a different planet, not just float around up in the black silence. I'm sure it looks incredible, and thanks to some pretty high tech cameras, I can sit right here and look at the stuff. But I want to know what the moon's craters feel like and I want to touch the dusty red earth of Mars. I want to be close enough to a star to feel it's heat and I want to smell one thing in space! Not just float up there in a thing that looks like what we've already got here on Earth...
Tons of times! I went through a phase where I wanted to do it for animals rights reasons and then I went through a phase where I wanted to do it for my health, but now I realize that I don't want to live without red meat or poultry. I think in moderation is the way that I'll go.
Now, I'd like to get more into buying organic meat. Though don't ever expect me to touch the bones!!
Sitting in front of the fan and drinking a slushee or slurpee, whatever you call them!
I think that would ultimately depend on the crowd. But I guess, off the top of my head:
1. Bower Ponds
There's a pond, there's ducks, there's a playground, tons of greenery and all the best events happen down there. It's one of my favorite places to go in the summer, especially when the river is warm enough and I get over my fear of the slippery rocks... I don't know much about the history behind Bower Ponds, but it's a super cool place!
2. The Collicut Center
I've only ever been in two rooms at the Collicut Center, but I've heard amazing things about all the places that I haven't been. And just standing near the front doors, you can see an advanced wall climbing structure, with people climbing all over it and that's fun. But they also have a water park, an indoor walking track, and a fitness center as well as a huge field house. Both of the places above do really awesome fireworks every Canada Day.
3. I guess... Parkland Mall
Most people from Red Deer would probably be all like "What?!? You're not going to take them to Bower Mall?!?!?", and I'd be like, "Hell's no, I'm not going to take them there. I'm going to take them to the places I like and I like Parkland Mall!" Okay, yes, it may be partially only due to the fact that The Boyfriend works there, but it's also the more comfortable mall.
It's laid out about a thousand times better, where Bower Mall feels like it's trying to keep up with bigger Edmonton-type malls. And while those are fun in Edmonton, in Red Deer they just make no sense! Parkland Mall is also closer to my home, they have more reasonably priced places to shop and the atmosphere isn't nearly as snobby. Just my personal opinion.
Quite often. I don't remember everything about them, but I often have the same type of dream all the time. I'm normally looking like a female Russian spy, in shiny black clothes, and I'm normally running away from something epic like a storm, or murderers or some other thing that I can't see, I just know that I'm afraid of it.
A lot of times, my entire dream is white washed, and a lot of the objects in my dreams are white as well. White couches, white walls, white appliances, all sorts of whiteness. The weather is also normally not very nice. It's normally cloudy or stormy.
The first movie that I really remember seeing in theater was the Spice Girls movie. Though I know for a fact that I saw others before that, I just can't for the life of me remember which ones...
Summer of 2009. I'm not normally one to enjoy being outdoors, but during this summer the weather was absolutely wonderful and we spent so much of it outside. We went to the beach a lot, even though I was pregnant. We went on tons and tons of walks, discovering more and more of Red Deer, even though I was pregnant. We went paddle boating, which is the only type of boat I really like to be on/in, and there was this stupid little duck that wouldn't leave me alone, scared the crap out of me! It was just a great summer. You can check out a post about it: http://rantingsofatorturedmind.wordpress.com/2010/01/02/marathon-day-2-my-best-of-2009-list-post/
I hate to sound like a total loser, but in all honesty, I don't have any friends. It's just me, the kids and The Boyfriend - and I guess the rest of my family, but I don't know if they count as friends...
And out of all those options, the only people I'd do "anything" for is the kids. The Boyfriend means a great deal to me but I'm not about to go to jail for him or anything like that. Whereas the kids, I would go to the greatest lengths for them, no matter how much it sucked at the time.
I've always wanted to go to New York City. I want to see Times Square and Broadway and Carnegie Hall. I'd also like to see all the different types of people on such a tiny little island.
If I had to live in the States, it would most definitely be San Francisco, because they have The Institute for the Advanced Study of Human Sexuality, and I'd really like to go. It is also, in my opinion, the most sexually advanced place in the North Americas and that's pretty enticing to me.
It still haunts me to this day. When I was in Grade 3 (I think), we were living in BC and there was a wicked thunder and lightening storm. Lightening struck a telephone pole first and traveled down the line straight into the side of a house that had been converted into an old folks home.
Another pop of lightening had blown the tires on our car, and the third was by far the scariest. We lived in the basement suite of a house, and the lightening came down and shattered the glass around the patio above us and then struck the cement pad outside of the window where my Mom was sitting.
The sounds were the worst part of the whole thing. Loud and overbearing. I cried so hard and when I saw the lightening strike that pad as my Mom sat beneath it - seriously if that pad hadn't been there my Mom would've been struck my lightening - I've never felt so scared about anything in my entire life.
For the next 6 months, maybe longer, I wouldn't let my Mom go anywhere without me. I cried if she tried to go into the bathroom alone, I couldn't stand leaving her side so I would often sleep with her, I was seriously worried that another storm would hit and I would lose her.
Ever since, the scariest times in my life are thunder and lightening storms. The second they start, I begin breathing fast. Now my worry is more tornadoes than just the thunder and lightening. If it's sheet lightening, I tend to worry a lot less then if it's fork lightening. I avoid going near window, I often have mini panic attacks (thank god I've learnt to control myself better so that I don't have full on panic attacks - last summer there was a wicked storm and it was the last time I had a full on panic attack). Storms are the worst for me...
I've always liked Slaves of Oppression. We had to do some sort of English project - that I can barely remember now - a few years back and that was what I named my CD. I think it's catchy.
Cleaning my bathroom. It's been on my to-do list for literally weeks now. It's not that it's going to be that hard to clean, the only part that will be is the toothpaste that the kids have gotten on the floor. It shouldn't take me longer than half an hour tops.
Generally, anything downstairs I have a hard time getting around to cleaning. It's normally not until it's 100% absolutely needed that it gets cleaned if it's downstairs. I don't know what keeps me from doing it, or why I don't want to so much, it just happens that way...
Hopefully by the end of today or tomorrow, I'll get it done, because I need to!
I'm still waiting...
This year has kind of been an epic failure and I should've known that it was going to be the second I proclaimed "2011 is My Year!", because so far that's been complete bull...
The worst part is, I can already forsee the next two months of this year being a series of more epic failures. At least the next two months, probably even longer, but I'm still trying to be optimistic.
As long as I complete at least one goal this year, I'll be satisfied. Just one goal...