Haaaaa...oh you make it so hard, asking this now.

but in all honesty..even if whats been happening is tearing me apart(my boyfriends words) i wouldn't change it. it's made me realize a lot of things..about who and what i need in my life. sure i miss how it used to be..and i always will...but whats happened has happened and i want to move on..even if i can't seem to find any help with it right now.