Chrome!

I'm terribly sorry for my disappearance! You have me frightened, I hope you are in good health of reading this.

Your depression can only be cured by you. Mind set, (as I've found) is one of the cures to any discomfort, hatred, sadness, and bitterness.

A quote I have kept closed to my heart is, "Instead of bashing what you hate, Praise what you love". There is always a complex reason as to why a person is depressed, (its hardly ever over one thing, but rather many reasons) I advise you to find out what has its strongest grip on you out of everything and work on it daily.

Please remember, you NEVER have to go through anything alone. Bring me with you. If you need me my cell phone number is on my Facebook. Please do not hesitate to talk to me.

I have a million songs for each and every memory.... I'll share two!

The first song I had ever danced to with my father was Moon Child by King Crimson. He told me to put my feet on his shoes, and he begun lifting our feet as he twirled us across our small living room in Hayward.

I learned You are my Sunshine before I had ever learned my ABC's and my Mom and I would sing it together practically every hour of the day.

Oh my goodness!

That's a magnificent ring. I'd love to own something like that one day. Who else has something like that in their wardrobe? I think yes. It would go very well with steampunk attire, however, steampunk is usually more gold or brass.

Though this isn't steampunk this is probably the prettiest ring I've ever saw:
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She's very pretty.

I'm going to change this question to "day"...

My favorite part of the day is when it was two AM. I was texting my boyfriend (he works 12 hour shifts and tries to text me each of his breaks to help him stay awake). I was just getting ready for bed. Two AM... Just getting ready for bed. I know, I'm ridiculous.

Anyways, he wrote me asking if I had any plans for the weekend...

Smiling... Because I usually cancel my entire schedule to get a glimpse of his face in a heart beat... I told him I had not made any plans yet.

We made plans to see eachother and he told me he was off on Monday morning. Cool. I'll see him then I thought... I told him goodnight. He replied quickly before I fell asleep and said "Are you going to wake up when I'm off?". That confused me.

Anyways, to shorten this up a bit... He didn't want to wait until he was off to see me. After his long 12 hour shift when he gets off at 6AM he wanted to drive and pick me up.

That made me very happy, though I was tired, I started packing and stayed up until I saw him.

Yes! My darling angel (Her name is Smokey) gets a tad edgy when I'm gone from home too long. Sometimes I won't see her for a week at a time. I feel very bad, but I don't like being locked in the house and I'll do anything to get away.

Whenever I do come home I bathe her in her Salmon whisker lickens and pet her for hours. Usually by the second day I'm still home she'll warm up and forgive me.

One time I was gone for only three days, and when I returned I saw her outside and picked her up happily... She wasn't as excited to see me as I was her...

She scratched my chest twice. They left very visible scars which I've grown very fond of.

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April!!! *^_^* <3

I have not used a IM website in ages.

Since I've had a iPhone for two months, I FaceTime all of my friends.

I was sitting in my house FaceTime-ing my friend and showing her my Mom snoring. Just random things!

Most conversations with my friends aren't deep or thought provoking. I'd hate to say this, but it feels impossible to talk to them with in-depth conversations.

My friends like to talk about little things like shoes, television shows, and boys. I think talking of those subjects is wonderful, but I'd also enjoy friends whom I can be real with.

The Dark Crystal was my favorite.

I dreamed of being a Gelfling, especially Kira. She's SO perfect. With her white hair, Fizzgig and nature call. I was jealous of her. She was so mystical and free.

Another movie I especially liked was The Little Mermaid.

Ariel is perfection. With a beautiful voice, red hair, and clam shell bra, she's definitely memorable. I could sing all the songs never once having to pause trying to remember the lyrics. I was jealous of Ariel too. I wanted to be the princess, and of course, date Eric. Flounder was adorable too! And his little babies turned out really cute in the second movie!

Clash of The Titans! (1981)

Don't even get me STARTED on this film! First off, I was around seven when I watched it. I was immediately OBSESSED. I however don't remember the name of the robotic owl, but I wished every night at 11:11 to be the owner of one some day. Hah!

RELEASE THE KRACKEN!



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I was never allowed to watch Harry Potter as a kid, but I watched them all two months ago for the first time in my life. I must say, if I was a kid and watching them I'd have practiced spells and wore a cape all day. I officially now want to carry a wand in my back pocket everyday and call everyone a muggle.
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Absolutely!

I live in a little town where nothing is ever going on. I'm from Hayward and Livermore, so being in a small town occasionally takes its toll on my mind.

My Boyfriend and I try to get out of here when we have the time and take trips to my favorite place in the world (Japan Town). I don't mind living in a small town, but I do get bored. Easily.

If my best friend didn't live a hour away from me the case would be different, but its not. This is how it is.

Honestly, I feel trapped. And I'll never leave. Ever.

Oh really?!?!?!?

That's exactly what I was thinking! Props to you Darling! You read my mind!

No. I don't smoke.

I have in the past, (marijuana) but I'm truly not interested. If I'm depressed I'll mainly pick up a book and read or complain on facebook.

If I'm looking for fun I'll hang out with friends or text strangers ridiculous messages.

I don't have many followers. I have 387, and its been that way as long as I recall.

People find my answers boring, or not something they are interested in. Which is fine, because I'd rather have the little 387 than 900+ that don't care what I have to say.

The people who do follow me know me by name and that is much more rewarding than anything else.

As I've said I am fine with it. I don't beg people to follow me, and I don't care too much when I get unfollowed. It is life, and people are ever-changing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JgpARGvBnc

Technically, I was in tears but they were of joy.

Play

Oh goodness...

Well, darn... I've caught them flirting a few times, and I don't think anything of it. I have good interpretations of body language and jokes, but I know they'd both never hurt me, and if they did... Bring it on Darling. I'm that much stronger.

I'll tell you what: If my best friend and boyfriend wanted to be together I'd be devastated, but I'd rather her be with him than some fool. (As she always is).

My best friend has always dated my ex boyfriends after me. Its the circle of life for us, and it disgusts me but what can I say? I have good taste.

At first it bothered me beyond measure, but soon after relationships with my boyfriends got boring so we'd make plans to make them fall in love with her and I could go on with my life happily.

I guess since then, I've adapted to the pain. She's (somewhat) dating my best friend and its the hardest thing I've ever had to witness.

Eric is my everything. He's the best man in the world. (Besides my Man) He deserves the best God has to offer. The best. The best. The best.

I am the one who brought them both together, I regret my mistake of doing so whole heartily but I can't change this.

Like I've said though, I don't see that happening but if it were to happen I'd be the sweet caring "It's okay" best friend I've always been.......

+ Purchase a Victorian home on a vineyard in Napa Valley
+ Buy my 1932 Duesenberg in a Crimson color
+ Buy a Rose Breasted Cockatoo
+ Get my cat Smokey chipped and buy her a pearl collar
+ Have a opera tutor (more experienced than one I have already)
+ Buy a old fashioned bed frame like my parents
+ Support my family and their rent
+ Buy my boyfriend the tool box he dreams of
+ Create a CD of myself singing in a studio and put it on iTunes
+ Buy a Spynx
+ Own all of the I Love Lucy episodes, as well as Degrassi and Wilfred
+ Have a maid who makes hot cocoa for me every morning
+ Have a Chaplin living in my house and teaching my kids of the bible
+ Buy my 1979' Harley Davidson Shovel Head
+ Buy my Boyfriend any car he desired
+ Open a massage shop for his parents
+ Have my Dad doing any work my Duesenberg might require
+ Own all of Jeffery Campbells Lita's
+ Own Bordello Pleasers
+ Have all of Sephora's makeup
+ Have my own personal library in my room
+ HAVE A KITCHEN OUTLOOKING OUR BACKYARD******
+ Buy d.d.r
+ Meet James Cameron and tell him thanks for creating Avatar
+ Conduct a movie of the novel I'm writing

If I really won the lottery, I probably wouldn't do any of that. It was just fun to think of.

^_^

Last night I watched a documentary about prostitution called "Whore".

It broke my heart, and I didn't know what to think at the end of the movie. So many minds are altered by men.

The female "escorts" were saying that most men who come to them are married... It sent a shiver down my spine. What would I do if my spouse went to a call girl for a night because I wasn't pleasing him how he liked?

It all comes down to this: Everything is about sexual intercourse. Everything. In truth, we would not be here without sex. Our father and mother had to engage in sex to bring us into this world. Everything, and I mean everything leads to sex one way or another.

Its difficult. Many people cheat because they are not getting what they need from their partner. Maybe your husband or wife is into sado and too ashamed to tell you... Maybe that leads to them finding a women on the street they can do anything to.

Its depressing. In this world, there will always be someone better than you. Someone who is better looking, a better "lay", fuller breasts, or a bigger package. Its a hard world.

I have thought of never marrying due to being unable to keep up with everything a man could want. Its difficult, and if you think of it too much you'll become a man-hating/woman-hating fool.

There MIGHT be a man/woman out there who loves you for you, but in reality that person will take a lifetime to find. Love doesn't happen often, and when it does it drives you mental.

It is entirly impossible to keep up with men/woman. They/we always find something better. Something more exiting, something more risque. Every women, every man wants something different.

This is why people cheat.

Because people can't let go of their selfish needs. At one point they stop caring for one another, and become "I want", "I need"... Because people can't come to understanding one another. Because a wife doesn't put out, or a male doesn't offer a open ear to listen.

And society tells us this is okay, and that this is normal.

Take Ashton Kutcher and Demi Moore for example. Married for six years, and with beautiful children. How do you think Demi felt when Ashton had a one-night stand with a student WITHOUT protection? If I were Demi, I wouldn't be able to look upon his face. I'd be disgusted.

It is betrayal in its worst form. I would rather be dead.

I have been cheated on. I was a fool. I accepted it, and I decided I could forgive. That I would continue loving him as nothing changed. How pathetic was I?

Cheating is never okay. Regardless if needs weren't met, cheating is savage.