Because letting go is hard, even if it's for the better. Most people don't like change, because they can't adapt to something quickly. It takes time to get used to a new routine and new circumstances. Being comfortable is something that is very important to the human race. Upset that comfort and people become very irritated and upset.

And love. Love is a fickle mo'fo. But it's there to teach us and nurture us. Lessons come from everything and love is no different.

Waking up. I think of my past a whole lot. Well, parts of my past anyway. But lately, it's been specific things. Waking up makes me think of specific things...

YOU DON'T HAVE ONE, EXCEPT THE ONE IN MY PHOTO ALBUM WHICH NEVER COMES TO MIND BECAUSE IT'S BURIED UNDER MANY RANDOM PICTURE ALBUMS. I WILL POST SOON AND IT WILL BE AMAZING.

WHATCHU TALKING ABOUT?

If I didn't have class tomorrow we could have done it then. T-T I miss Laura too!

Anytime in England or the day at Edinburgh castle in Scotland. I miss it so much. I miss Steven's family quite a bit, they're amazing people.

I had quite a lot of fun as a brunette, but I think blonds automatically receive more attention. Simply because I think people see thin girls with blond hair as automatically attractive. It's a very popular type of allure.

What do you mean? O_o It's still there, as always. Chillin.

Dayum gurl, you know me so well. But hey, green anything is awesome. :3

Hm, I have come a long way from how I used to cope. Which was self-harm, bottling my emotions, and continuously blaming myself for everything that went wrong.

Over time I've warped my emotional perception to fit the views I really do believe. I know that everything can't be my fault, that sometimes things just happen because you can't control other people's behaviour or thoughts. I've continuously burned these ways of thinking into my mind, in order to react appropriately. Self-awareness is key! As I always say. It is honestly the most valuable thing you can achieve.

Nowadays, I try my best to distract myself from the things I can't control. Either by seeing friends, family, or doing something like painting or reading. I strive to improve on the things I dislike, rather than simply hating on them. That will get you nowehere.

Sometimes I falter and break down, but I make it a point to think about all the things and people I'm lucky to have. Every single day. I have learned to surround myself with only the best, and if they love me, then I must be doing something right. :)

Nope! But it has easy patches. I assume that things do get easier, MORE OFTEN, when you're settled with a proper job and home.

He was probably just taking his time!

Yesterday while chillin with my mom, sister, and Billy (my mom's boyfriend). I spent pretty much the entire time on my couch. My mom made us food. :3

No matter how much you paint the canvas of your face, the truth with burn the medium. Smothering ashes on the newly painted facade, wiped clean only by the tears of shame.

BLOGGING. That's what I'm doing right now anyway. I have too many blogs. I'm probably the easiest person to stalk ever. In general, I learn things because I'm a student.

Of course you will, you're already on your way. I can see it in your eyes. Sadness doesn't make you any less yourself, it's part of you. Embrace everything that comes naturally and look at each moment like a lesson. Think about what you love about yourself and see those things in your actions. And don't convince yourself that there's nothing, because I know there are things you like. Think about what you don't like about yourself, see those things in your actions. With the things you love, highlight them. Make them stand out. With the things you don't like, accept that they're there and replace them with better alternatives.

Everything requires effort. It takes a lot of hard work to remain self-aware and empathetic. We all have our faults and we all have to work hard be the best person we can be. Just have to learn how to let that person shine, my dear!

Thanks! :D I'm very glad. My mom always told me I had fairy/elf ears. haha!

Done! Bahaha don't worry, I'll hold your hand and be brave for you. :) <3 You'll see it's not bad at all. I want to get my venom tongue piercings so badly. We need to mission to Toronto next week. I told Laura I'd visit her. You should come along and we'll go to Urban Ink at the same time! Perhaps she'll also fix up my piercings while I'm there. SO MANY PIERCING OPPORTUNITIES, I MIGHT DIE OF HAPPY.

There is always love in your life my dear. It may not be the type of love you want, but that will come in due time. Try and remember that you're lucky to have gotten what you did and even though it's over now, it will be part of your life forever. It's time to focus on loving yourself and loving the people who will be here for you, through anything! <3

I think of them nearly every day, to be honest. But realistically, sometime next week. :)